“Sober”

There’s a reason many alcoholics say “I’m an alcoholic”.  Present tense.  Because if you say “I was an alcoholic” you can fool yourself into thinking maybe someday you can drink again.  Be normal.  Many of us avoid alcohol like it’s poison even if it’s been years because we can’t trust that we will ever be […]

Ghosts of the Past

The ghosts of the past trail me looking for weak moments.  They say that cutting is the only way to get relief . . . They notice me take a long, deep breath of rubbing alcohol fumes that take me back to the days of martinis and blackouts.  How could I long to go back […]

Sobriety Birthday

I don’t remember much about July 12th.  Perhaps it should be my “sobriety birthday” since it was the first day: day one of no more drinking.  Ever.  But many who have been on the alcoholic’s journey know that there are many first days of “no more drinking, ever”. “Today is the day,” then a few […]