My voice is sounding weird to me: like I’m in an echo chamber. I’ve been isolating and don’t feel like talking to anyone or seeing anyone. Of course this isn’t possible in everyday life so part of me disconnects and makes me feel separate. I’m in a weird place where I’m personable and carrying on […]
My husband and I have marriage counseling on Wednesday nights. Things are not dire between us: we are not on the brink of divorce or fighting all the time, we are just trying to make our marriage more healthy. It is a lot of work. I can count on one hand the number of […]
I have been experiencing derealization on a constant basis for four or more days. I’m getting used to it but it breaks my heart. I want to be here fully and not have to fight so much. My best friend from childhood visited today. We hadn’t seen each other in ten years and it was […]
Today was a really good day: the first one I can remember having for some time. I had energy, I didn’t have to fight to be present, I didn’t feel misplaced in the reality around me. I didn’t have to remind myself to breathe every other minute and I had barely any numbness. The maddening […]
Healing The Ache 