Some sort of self-regulation may have finally been attained in these past few days and I am hoping against hope that I can continue with it. I actually think I can because so much has happened lately, both positive and heartbreaking, that the intensity has broken me . . . I need a break. Yet […]
Silence is golden . . . unless you’re drowning. I judge myself and hate myself and harm myself because I believe the lie that it will somehow get me out of the water enough to breathe but it does the exact opposite. Too often I just want to give up. Silence kills. Silence is losing […]
My husband and I have marriage counseling on Wednesday nights. Things are not dire between us: we are not on the brink of divorce or fighting all the time, we are just trying to make our marriage more healthy. It is a lot of work. I can count on one hand the number of […]
I haven’t been writing because I’ve been surviving. I wish I could say that I’ve been okay but the reality is that I have been barely getting by. The Ache, the quicksand, the darkness, were about to engulf me. I was frightened. I was scared of myself: scared that I would do the thing that […]
