I’m emerging from yet another “dark night of the soul”. Or, rather, a dark week of the soul. My body and mind shut down and I felt like I was losing a battle. It was the most frightened I have been for my well-being in a long time. I was somebody else – an empty […]
It was recently explained to me this way: I have a deck of cards – my priorities – and when I get stressed I rearrange those cards putting everything higher than myself. Self-care gets placed lower and lower in the stack until I become desperate and cannot reach that bottom rung on the ladder of […]
Confession: I have been down on myself and overwhelmed lately. I feel like I have no business even talking about it because I have not been trying very hard at self-care. It’s like I have to earn the right to admit that I am – once again – overwhelmed and lonely. Everything from taking my […]
Eating has been going better of late but there is much room for improvement. I’m discouraged because I still have a bi-weekly ritual of emptying the fridge of rotting food. I’m spending too much on takeout. I feel stressed and stuck. It frustrates my husband but he is very kind in trying not to say […]
I’ve had regular meals since yesterday afternoon. I don’t have time to fight this shit: I need to move on. I’m not going to play the life-sucking game of am I ready to work on it or not, am I worth it or not, do I have the determination or not. I am not going […]
Healing The Ache 